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Ramblings, thoughts, facts and opinions about political things - starting point council tenant participation with my land-lord Camden council and council tenant reps plus other housing issues, and whatever.

Thursday, 20 April 2017

Strange happenings

 Update 22 April 2017
I sent email to wrong person in the council thinking it was the housing officer. Genuine mistake. It happens. Sent out apologies.

I got a bit upset when person I emailed, emailed back saying they knew nothing of meeting with me. Thought I had been duped by some scammers in the council - must have been because I remembered I didn't get to see photo on ID card and the person seemed to have a different accent to when on the phone.

Send email to correct person in the council.

I emailed local housing officer recently for word on the visit HO made to me at home on 3 April 2017. I put the wrong month in email, which I later corrected.

Anyway, HO knew nothing of the visit, and didn't mention any visit made to me - just in case HO may have thought I got the month wrong - which I did and corrected.

Person who visited me at home had ID tag with name and photo on dangled around neck and showed it to me. I saw the name [was that of HO who I spoke on phone to] but I didn't get a proper look at the photo.

I invited this person in. I though OK be polite to etc. Person sat in my living room whilst I was playing calming celtic music for my anxiety/mini breakdown problem. I offered a drink, person requested water. 

We chatted. I was offered help via social worker, help with possible new housing, said that I did need help - talked about contacting GP, etc etc. I was so relived at the help. It didn't seem real in some ways. I know now why.

I remember before person pulled away the ID tag I did think that I didn't get a proper look at photo - that person even had a different accent to  HO I spoke with on phone - but I dismissed it because I didn't think this sort of thing would/could happen - and so brazenly by people in Camden council. I was wrong. See how easily it is done? It shocked me a lot and I am still trying to calm my nerves down and not let this get to me.

Deep breaths.

I have been advised to contact the police about this which I will do soon. 

What really concerns and frightens me is that some people may be trying to make me look like I'm 'crazy' and delusion who imagines things, is a liar. I have already been made out to be a liar, to have imagined things by an NHS healthcare service provider - must be me 'mental' problems.

I wouldn't put it past them to try and get me sectioned. Well I have already been assessed and I don't need hospitalisation/sectioning. Just help with a few things and not stitched up by people we are supposed to be able to trust.

What if this sort of stuff has happened before with other people and will happen again?

What a mess.

I wonder what the motive was behind this? 

Have been reading up on the Mental Health Care 1983 HERE,
and the 2015 Statutory Code of Practice HERE. There is lots legislation that is supposed to give protection against arbitrary interference by the state [and its agents]- but those so inclined do what they want anyway. 

Wonder what the bogus HO and chums [will be others involved] will do next?We shall see.

Just in case they may want to use anything against me and I really don't care who knows as I have already revealed other stuff on here about my 'conditions' so I might as well reveal some more:

 I was sectioned to be detained in a 'mental' hospital many years ago. Thankfully this  was the only time. I was sectioned because I was a danger to myself - not others. It wasn't long term a few months I think then I went to a therapeutic residential home outside London.

This had been building up from when I was a teen and I was sectioned at around aged 21/22 because of overdoses, cutting skin with razor blade till I saw the blood, and burning my skin with lighted fags. I couldn't speak about what was going on, couldn't find words so it went inwards and I harmed myself.  I have opened up a lot more lately and I do have the words now - lots of them.

I haven't done the cutting etc for many many years, and I have no intention of ever doing it again.

I have upped my meds and have learned some technigues to keep me afloat and the weed of course helps with the pain a bit -the natural stuff, not very strong but it helps. It doesn't make me delusional etc, it does though make me see things more clearly, though not always at first as some things are a bit more complicated, need a lot more thinking.

It does feel like I am being tested though - coming at me from all angles and it does make me doubt myself, my saneness, my ability - psychological warfare, Tis life I guess. My right shoulder area is playing me up tonight.

Sending out positive energy, thoughts, feelings and healing to all who need it. With love, the Universe.

I'm back again cos I can't sleep yet and my emotions/thoughts are up and down, not too high not too low. riding the waves in my little dingy with a paddle. Land ahoy.

21 April 2017
Just to go over again what happened:
Someone who knew that a Camden council housing estate officer  was visiting me on such and such a day and time, knew how to get access to  the estate officers ID card, knew I had contacted this estate officers  manager - came to visit me at home pretending to be someone they weren't and duped me into inviting them in and having a chat.

What would 'possess' the council to do such a thing - the knowledge/belief  that there would be no comeback?

Thursday, 23 March 2017

Experience of NHS MSK Service

I have thought a bit about how open to be about the experience I had when I was referred last year [Sept 2016] by GP to see a physiotherapist about neck/shoulder pain. I will see as I go along. This was to be the second time I went to see a physiotherapist about physical pain, the last time was in 2014 with lower back/left leg pain.

Considering what happened, the affect it has had and then how it was handled and how it could impact on other patients, being quiet isn't an option for me. There is I think also the issue of how the physio was affected. But I am torn on this one.

The private company [Connect Physical Health Centres Ltd HERE trading as Connect Health] who provide the service on behalf of the NHS have in my view handled things badly and have not been able/willing to resolve the issue through their complaints feedback system. I didn't at the time know it could have been resolved informally [ but for reasons that may become clear later, I think it wouldn't have been].

To be fair CH may on the whole [i don't know this but am just saying] provide a reasonable/good service , but in some areas at least and in my experience things need to improve considerably.

HERE is CH Quality Account 2015/16  " A biopsychosocial approach to patient assessment and care bringing together the musculoskeletal and pain pathways with a holistic approach to patient care, enchancing positive outcomes for patients" 

 "Our clinical leadership structure allows, local ownership of Clinical Governance, whilst maintaining  central governance and oversight." 
This one is interesting I think and I may say why at a later point.*

I will start with me being sent a letter from a manager [after only 3 meetings with the physiotherapist]-  a 'Red Card'  telling me along the lines that I have been expelled from using their service - because of 2 'inappropriate' emails I sent: 1 to the manager and the other to the physio. No explanation other than that. Manager also sent an email to me about it.

The managers letter also suggested I would find it difficult to get alternative treatment.

As per the company/nhs policy I was also tagged as being Abusive, Aggressive or Violent. 

What must I have done to create such a stir you may be wondering - i will come to that latter. I don't go looking for trouble - it finds me - really it does. I felt like a naughty child being expelled from school for being unruly. Ok it may have happened to me at 14/15 it may not have. 

Going back to the 'Red Card' letter - it was also sent to my GP Practice and put on my medical file. When I asked GP why such letters are accepted without question, the GP couldn't answer. I did however manage to get my explanation of what happened, plus other related stuff put on my file along with the 'red card'.

..................... to be continued

24 March 2017
Connect Health [CH] took over the running of the NHS MSK service from the Royal Free Hospital back in 2009 HERE .
[updated 25 March 2017] apparently the RF hospital still provides a MSK service HERE 
"In September 2016 UCLH was successful in its tender for lead provider status of an integrated musculoskeletal (MSK) service in Camden, in partnership with the Royal Free, Connect Health (the incumbent community physio provider), Haverstock Healthcare and CNWL. In addition the partnership is also in close discussion with the Royal National Orthopaedic Hospital and Whittington Health as other key providers of MSK services in Camden" ref  HERE Apparently CH subcontract  with the RF.

I believe the 2 'offending' emails should be seen in the wider context and not the narrow view that has been taken by CH. I don't really know what CH's argument was for the red card other than it appears to be about protecting their staff against having to account for things when they 'go wrong'. Things can happen that are outside of our control and I am not blaming anyone.

I think it was Oct 2016 that I first saw the physio about my neck/shoulders pain. I was in general not feeling great physically or mentally and felt a degree of vulnerability because of it. I remember sitting outside the physios office waiting to go in for first appointment and I was very anxious, eyes closed, holding onto my bag - i don't know why exactly I was feeling so anxious maybe things in general.

To my annoyance I found that I felt an attraction to the physio. Though I had decided at some point earlier on in the year that I wanted to make connections with some people, the right people, [open up to be more connected with the universe in general - laugh if you will] this wasn't wanted or needed at this point and not in this setting, so my guard went up. 

I went away and didn't think much of it until the next meeting when at the end I was triggered again and felt shaken and not in control of my feelings towards the physio.

The next appointment was cancelled by the physio and a new one made for just before the new year. It was in some ways an unusual phone call and one that again triggered my emotions. I have to add that still at this point though I was picking up on things, I wasn't understanding them, they weren't sinking in - that came later.

................ to be continued

25 March 2017
I'm feeling quite upset today about this. CH had their chance to resolve this but they chose not to and now I have to put more time and effort into this. 

To cut a long story short the 3rd and final meeting with the physiotherapist was the tipping point I suppose you can call it. Significant things happened in the office to me and the physio. Neither of us said anything, I couldn't, it hadn't registered yet and I think the physio couldn't either. It was in all like 2 electrically charged magnets being pulled towards each other as opposite poles [opposites attract opposites] then shifting to same poles [like repels like]. Make of that what you will. I think I know what its about, well on my part anyway.

The aftermath of what happened to me is as follows:  My mind and brain started  processing what had happened and it overwhelmed me and I became emotionally unstable in some ways. I was up and and down up and down. I was feeling elated, lifted up, etc then I was feeling pain and I was crying a lot. Up and down up and down.

I hadn't been able to cry for years not even when my parents died within 2 years of each other and the damn had burst and pain was bad.

I had to try and manage what was happening as best I could - I didn't want to contact the crisis team again or GP. I felt the pain, felt the tears flow,  felt the elation, worked on the feelings, tried to make sense of them. I could feel my brain and heart firing up. My brain was shifting, processing things daily. Lots of confusion. It was also very spiritual as I was sensing things, having dreams whose message seemed clear to me. I was on journey and I didn't really know where I was heading.

Considering the state I was in [emotions so out of control] I decided to change therapist -- it wasn't a very good position for either of us to be in and it was getting in the way of treatment for the neck/shoulders pain.

..................... to be continued

29 March 2017
I thought I would inform physio of a bit of what was going on with me but it wasn't possible for me to do it verbally so I asked for email contact and it was given but with the condition it was only for 1 reply from physio. This didn't make sense to me and I ignored it.

Anyhow, I changed physio and there was to be no discussion about what had happened so I sent physio an email that seems to have shook things up a bit and the manager emailed me and told me not to contact physio again and when I challenged this I was threatened and I responded to this by saying 'bring it on' sort of thing.

Anyway the 'Red Card' letter comes through the post to me plus email.

And thus my journey around CHs internal system of trying to resolve this. CH have in some ways tried to salvage this and I grateful for that, but its not enough. As a NHS holistic [whatever that means]  healthcare provider, how can CH learn from [things that go right and things that go wrong] if they won't acknowledge things?

1 April 2017
I found a reporting from August 2015 on the National Health Executive  website HERE titled Poor complaints handling by NHS has 'serious human costs' - Ombudsman . The report is by the Parliamentary and Health Service Ombudsman [Website HERE]

Another story from 2016 titled Nearly two-thirds of NHS complaints unhappy with outcome HERE

The way an issue is [badly] handled can be a worse 'injustice' then the original issue I think. Our Glorious NHS - run and delivered by [fallible] humans who in some ways have incompatible interests with service users/patients. Humans in general.
Humans - so much to learn and understand [I include myself in that] and so little time [it feels like].

How does one fix this? Robots - they may well provide better services in some areas?

6 April 2017
I feel worn down today and feel like giving up on this. I think whats the point in pursing it further with CCCG or CQC when CH doesn't seem to give a 4xxxx about the truth, good practice, truthful accountability etc, - why should they? conflicting interests. 

I get it - when push comes to shove staff will be protected over patients and patients will just have to get over it, move on. The balance of power/protection is unequal I think.

Things could have been worse. Some people fight for years and years to try and get justice over something greatly significant that went wrong in the NHS like a child dying etc. Its only emotions. If people didn't get so emotional over things we would solve half the worlds problems - am I right?

Shall I take their 2 'good will' gestures  and count my lucky stars?

Do I give up despite still having concerns?

Think I've just talked meself back into battle mode, polishing up my armour.

Its good to talk even if its just to yourself or writing things down. Bring it on.

7 April 2017
I fell in love. Physio fell in love. Disaster.

9 April 2017
Did I mention I fell in love?  what a connection to go/be pulled  crashing into when I was supposed to be taking small steps connecting with others.   It was profound like I had never known before and no wonder it triggered such a reaction. Can I have some more drugs please? only kidding.

I think though, it was fated to never go further then it did and that hurts a lot. It was magical, spiritual - and brutal - and it was what it was.  Trying to make sense of the intangible, but tangible.

11 April 2017
The House of Commons briefing paper [ 10 April 2017] on NHS Complaints Procedures in England can be found HERE

" The NHS complaints system is designed to provide explanations of what happened and, where appropriate, apologies and information about action taken to ensure similar incidents don't happen again" [my emphasis]

Not so in this case where CH choose to protect their Camden based people at any cost [it seems].

The NHS Constitution [governing legal document]which Pledges "to ensure that when mistakes happen or if you are harmed whilst receiving healthcare you receive an appropriate explanation" [my emphasis] .

Or in CH's case when things go wrong or 'misunderstandings' as CH may like to suggest they were, they use 'underhanded tactics' to further mess with your emotions/feelings.  I mean who would believe a 'mentally vulnerable' patient over NHS 'professionals' ?

In January 2015 the Health Select Committee published a report  called Complaints and Raising Concerns  HERE : "too many complaints are mishandled with people experiencing poor communication or, at worse a defensive and complicated  system which results in a complete breakdown of trust and a failure to improve patient safety" [my emphasis]

I know there are many great and decent people in the NHS, but when it comes down to it, how many will tell the truth and admit something [when things go wrong] because its the decent and right thing to do?

Isn't our glorious NHS worthy of a reputation better than 'bad at complaints handling and resolving issues' - or in plain English protecting NHS staff at any cost.

Fired up and armour polished.

I fell in love in the office with a being who also fell in love with me in the office - it was confusing and  unnerving and nothing was said about it, nothing could be said about it. It was powerful and intimate and scary.

I can only describe it as akin to what I felt when my mother died. She was alive in bed and I went out of the hospital room and when I came back in she was gone. I looked at her and I felt a shake/slap inside my head and it spread down through my body. I didn't react other than switching off some more.

When I fell in love I felt 'it'  come from physio through the eyes, go through my eyes and into the front of my head, like a ghost/spirit entering my head causing a quiet explosion behind my eyes. Later it spread down through my nervous system and caused havoc.

I can't say how it affected physio other than what I saw and heard, and I did later on have genuine concern for physio but when I mentioned it the reaction  was I think rather harsh and unfair. What could be the reason for that I wonder?

14 April 2017
You know when you don't take things in right away? like when you read a letter or alike and its only when you re-read that things about what is being said and how its said sink in?

I've found as well that one can also pick up on who has written things [no not the digital signature at end of letter].

I thought the way the issue had been handled was about 'taking back control' but I now think its about not being in control - again. We can't control everything. We can try though.

15 April 2017
Physio was not in great health I could see that re a cold and before that a virus/infection and what happened was very powerful and intimate - it winded physio and shook my nerves quite a bit. I think physio would have thought about it afterwards, as I did, appraised the situation, tried to make sense of it. I'm so tired of this.

Ben Watling, Head of Governance and Compliance who is a founding member of CH name is on replies to the 2 stages of CH complaints system. 

I believe that CH complaints are wholly managed at a local level - who where in such a hurry to reply to stage 1 of the complaints that they 'forgot' to follow CH own complaints procedures [bar 1].

As far as I am aware  Team Leader manages the complaints [ including sending out any warning/expulsion letters to patients] and then replies to any complaints under delegated authority using RB and BWs names on replies. Its very underhanded I think. i suspect this would be denied as well.  Team lead in total denial.

Mr Watling and Ms Brown must be very secure in their jobs to be happy with this arrangement?  Why shouldn't they be - CH being a big shot private company health care supplier to the NHS.

I was referred to CH about quite bad at times pain in neck/shoulders [that I believe is aggravated by stress] and pain in top of arm that restricts full use of arm and came away with more pain then I hope they never have to experience. Maybe its the word Pain [and its meaning] that frightens them so much?

How CH have also played this is to send me a reply to stage one complaint - mentioning a 'yellow card' warning they apparently issue when they claim there has been a 'misunderstanding' where they don't have evidence [other than patients word I guessing] of what happened [a 'yellow card' warning hadn't been issued] and they used an email I sent as 'evidence', not of what happened but as evidence of me being 'inappropriate'. And saying the reply was the end of the matter or whatever unless GP wanted a word - or something. Authoritative I think. Confident even.

Am I a crazy mad person some may ask? Well so far I haven't been assessed as such - battered and bruised but not crazy.

My brain is still functioning well in many areas.

18 April 2017
I'm reading the Transforming Primary Care in London: A strategic Commissioning Framework  HERE. HERE is the Camden Council and NHS strategy [2016] to achieve by 2020.

CH said they would make a referral to the RF for me to have further treatment and that I should receive a letter from RF in the near future.

I have been waiting nearly a month now.  Will have to chase it up soon.

22 April 2017
Sent email to CH  about referral and waiting now, not necessarily for a reply but a letter with my 'promised' appointment on it.

Think I will need a proper examination of the shoulder/neck area as shown in various video's i've watched as a sneaky poke in my left shoulder that hurt a lot and then jumping away - does not maketh a proper examination.

I am feeling torn again. It keeps happening.

One part of me, because I still have the love feeling for physio, that I really don't want to cause any trouble/harm to physio by pursuing this [my heart leading] but then I think physio was/is the NHS professional in this, not me. I was the patient who is saying something happened in the office to me and to the physio that lead to me having a mini breakdown and then to further add to things I was then treated like I am a naughty child who said the wrong thing and had to be punished for it. This hurts a lot.

Why should CH 'care' one may wonder- because CH and their registered healthcare  practitioners have various Legal obligations they should be adhering to and healthcare professionals are supposed to be fit to practice. They may not actually care, but they have a legal duty to at least put on a show of caring.

23 April 2017
I suspect things won't get resolved in Camden [by the Camden Clinical Commissioning Group] and I haven't yet sent a summary of my experience to Camden councils Health and Well being Board HERE who are the leading partners in the commissioning/buying of health services, and I suspect it still won't be resolved, so I will be going outside the borough to either the Care Quality Commission HERE Parliamentary and Heath Service Ombudsman HERE.  I think thought i'm not clear on this that you can only go to one or the other.

There is also the Health and Social Care Council HERE who register people working in the Heath and Social care professions so that they can legally practice in the UK.

I really don't want to go to any of the above but it will probably happen.

Unfulfilled expectations.

Friday, 10 March 2017


According to the NHS website HERE Well being  is:

" Feeling happy is a part of mental well being. But it’s far from the whole.
Feelings of contentment, enjoyment, confidence and engagement with the world are all a part of mental well being.
 Self-esteem and self-confidence are, too.
So is a feeling that you can do the things you want to do. And so are good relationships, which bring joy to you and those around you."

The thing is that when one been disconnected from people (all, some, most) but then reaches a point in their life existence  for connection with the right people, the earth, nature, other beings, the universe it does come with its problems  as well as its benefits.

Opening up can start with taking in the beauty around you like the trees, flowers, etc, like looking up to the sky on a clear night and seeing the stars, the moon, or in the day the sun, and feeling, seeing them as the wondrous things they are. Learning that everything is connected, or has the potential of being connected. Learning how the human brain works, atoms, particles, etc, exploring the mind, the soul, trying to function as a whole instead of fractured parts.

I'm not going mad, i'm really not, just moving to a different frequency (i think) to try and make this existence bearable. Its a slow process and some times it feels like one step forward, 3 steps back, but its happening.

Being connected means seeing/knowing/feeling others pain. Feeling others joy. Knowing its all one. Its spiritual, intangible. At times I can feel myself lifting up towards the light and i feel my heart fire up and my brain fire up but then the pain drags me back down again.

I had a glorious mighty experience. It was also a mighty painful one. Still is. It had a profound affect on me. I need good sleep. I have various battles to fight. 

I will probably change my mind later on and take this post down as I'm really tired and need to sleep and don't  know what point i'm trying make. I'm sure i started of with a point in mind but ive lost it now or maybe i have made the point and don't realise it yet.

13 March 2017
sometimes its like the pain doesn't can't really belong to me. not sure the ups are really mine either.

Thank you for being open but ...... Shall I close myself up again?

Some NHS services should come with a health warning I reckon.

14 March 2017
Am feeling the warm glow inside of me this evening - but its a struggle to keep hold of it continuously but I'm trying.

17 March 2017
Am trying a new technique: replacing the pain feeling with the warm glow feeling. It seems to have worked a bit this late eve but was hard - or maybe it was the magic dust that I came across that did it - who knows.

18 March 2017
Came down a bit (crashed) from the warm glow and sleep isn't too good. Need good sleep.

19 March 2017
Am sure that at least some of the pain I feel in my neck and shoulders and which I was receiving NHS treatment for (but wasn't able to continue with), is to do with stress, anxiety etc.

I was poked in the shoulder once and said ouch but I didn't feel the poke, but the pain.  Then the poker jumped away like a magnet repelling another magnet.

22 March 2017
Pain in my right shoulder is fierce today. What doesn't kill ya makes you stronger [in some ways] apparently.

The Battle has shifted onto a higher level.

With love.

27 March 2017
Have been finding it harder and harder to go outside even to the front gate without feeling strange inside, without anxiety over what I'm not really sure about. Its like I feel vulnerable to something I can't yet work out and I want to go back inside but inside isn't safe not entirely.

I know I haven't gone back inside myself as before and closed up but instead of feeling like I am blending into the outside [being invisible maybe] I am so very aware of being held in a body [container]  that won't loosen its grip on me not even a bit to let me expand as I need to.

30 march 2017
am a bit lifted at present and think I may at some point go find a [little] hill and go sit down on it and meditate [for a few minutes] - not forgetting to hug an old [wise?]  tree on my way down. But I might not even have to go out just imagine it in my mind.

1 April 2017
I feel as if I was given something magical but then it was snatched away from me and has caused a deep painful wound in my soul. I need to mend. I am alive existing. I will find a way.

am like a water fountain that keeps switching on and off. i feel dehydrated. im turning into a sun dried prune. ffs. and if I go out in the sun I might just combust as well. sleep. sleep. sleep. I laugh. Is this a test?

With love.

2 April 2017
Tears for Fears. Tears for Love.
I think I'm processing things better than I used to. I don't have the usual self loathing thoughts [though I know they are there lurking, rising but falling back]. The blame. The weakness. Shifting. They are no use to me anymore. I will heal. Believe. Patience.

I weep again.  Am I being cleansed, unblocked? My questioning mind. Always. It is what it is.


back again.....
I was listening to some relaxing celtic music on utube HERE - 
it helped a bit for a little while - i was imagining at first being at the seaside, not many people about, a warm slighly breezy day, i was alone, and that was okay. I looked out to the sea and looked around to take more of it in, and I lifted up off the ground and I could rise higher. Its not quite perfected though, I need to control it. I went to the cliff edge, lifted, I went to look at volanco, a vast river, forrest, mountains, lakes, wildlife in natural habit, birds, I was in the sky when snow fell, when lightening struck, when the wind was fierce, when the rain poured down. Magnetic shield around me. My friends. Thank you. I forgot to look up at the sun.

I was on the earth and I looked at the creatures who lived within it and I thanked them. I went down into the earth, deep down, through its natural resources and I came to the centre - 'metal/iron' - i kissed it. I love you. I must go up now.

I rise up through the earth and surface and its nightime and I look up and I see so many stars, overwhelming. So many. I rise up and I remember the magnetic shield around the earth and I think how can I be rising, floating up  when gravity is supposed to keep me down. Then I remembered I just can. I didn't  get up to far though as I got distracted. For a little while I felt such joy, saw such beauty I weep.

I think i'm starting to freak myself out a bit.

emotions, sometimes its like I don't really want to let them go, the pain. as if I do I will be letting go of something I am afraid to let go off.  Damned if I do damned if i don't?  My eyes are opened with a glow of brightness.

Really i'm not going mad [i keep telling myself]

I nearly forgot the moon, respect always.

3 March 2017
I can't sleep for more than a few hours without waking up. I need good sleep. I weep again. am trying not to feel hate, anger, not to feel the scream in my head destroy what is left of me.

I feel sad.

But you are human, not a supernatural all powerful god.but I am. I am. eck wasn't it the royals who had the slogan "I am" in their invector games.

Lord of the rings. Good v bad. Why am talking such bs? because im expunging this poison from my body, mind, spirit. Nuclear waste.radioactive waste.  Know thy enemy. sleep.

4 April 2017
feel deflated today and don't have enough energy to do much. Feel like my body keeps going to sleep while i'm awake. would like to start swimming again one day. Why are some things so difficult to do, seemingly easy things on the face of it, such hurdles to get over, or around depending on how you look at it.

I feel I don't have enough time left - that life has passed me by [or i let it pass me by] - what if this really is the only existence we have? but I won't care/know when I die, so why do I care whilst living? afraid of living and afraid of dying. feel disconnected again on some levels.

6 April 2017
Didn't feel too bad for a while yesterday but later deflated quite a bit. Am sleeping a lot now but sleep still interrupted. Fell asleep at one point listening to radio - subject was genes and sleep disorders or something like that.

7 April 2017
Fight or flight - both. Lots of tears and acknowledging uncomfortable thoughts that need to be processed properly - apologies to anyone caught in the crossfire between my conscious and unconscious state.  Some things seem to take a while to filter through, for me to really see understand them.

was ok for a few hours earlier today then mini brake down again [the pain, the tears] i wish I could go 1 whole day without the pain hurting so much it reduces me to tears.  even every other day would be progress. My neck and shoulders are playing me up today. I  feel weak but I know I am stronger than before. Believe.

Think I need to meditate again [can't do it everyday takes so much energy and have to be in right frame of mind] especially the trip I had the other day. I will get there. I will get there.

Does my pain repel you?  Is it your pain? the universe?

I started writing this sort of stuff and on this website because I am tired of hiding, of feeling ashamed of the difficulties I have, what I feel, what pains me,  what holds me back. The pain dominates. I have to ascend. I love you.

9 April 2017
wish i would stfu and stop writing this bs on here making a show of myself.  buck up your ideas, pull yourself together as some would say. Sometimes I can't read this stuff without feeling repelled or repulsed. Do xxxx off.

You know when some of the feelings/thoughts you have that you still find you are too ashamed  afraid to say to anyone else. Nothing bad about doing harm to anyone or anything like that just being human things. When at times you feel lonely and long to connect with the right being/s and be able to build on it. Or maybe the feeling is about a longing to properly connect with oneself and the universe in general but not feeling that you are. Patience. But there's not enough time. Patience.

When you have to keep people, even friends and family at a distance because you can't not do so. Maybe they aren't the right people to properly connect with or maybe you have a phobia of getting too close to any being.  To be free from oneself.  Rewind and start again.

From Camden with love.

12 April 2017
Saw GP today who was very supportive, which I appreciate a lot.

14 April 2017
put on the relaxation music and lay down and went for a journey inside my mind. It wasn't as intense as the last one - haven't been able to do deep [for me it is - small steps] meditation that often.

I saw things I needed to realise before I can ascend past the earths magnetic rings. I saw I had to get past my fear of heights. I also saw that the built up city I live in is like a barrier around me that stops the higher frequencies from freely flowing through. I need space. The open countryside, the sea, lakes, mountains, open unobstructed space.

I am in the ocean and I see the biggest creature on earth - the blue whale, magnificent in its sheer size, I am beside it I see into its eyes. We are one. I see the tiniest of ocean creatures, we are one. Thank you my friends. Know I love you.

I am on the top of the Post Office tower and I look out and I see more of whats around me. Don't look down, look ahead and above. Don't look down and see height, see a floor, a secure floor. The top of the tower opens up to look out side. I hesitate. Believe. I am afraid. Believe. I step out of the tower and its a floor. Its secure.

But what do i do now?

I go down and look at the creatures who live in the skies, on the wind, eagles, other birds. Creatures who live in the trees, on mountains. I see the creatures who live on the earths surface and it is the human creatures that disappoint and hurt me, who cause so much pain, why is that so? There are good humans but so much damage is done.

I go down through the earth and I get to the core. At first there is nothing just a space and after a little wait I hear it speaking to me. I am you and you are me. I am afraid, don't be. I love you and you love me. Yes. Know it. I smile. Thank you.

I swirl around like a switched on power drill [on reflection it probably was a bit slower swirl] and I rise back up through the earth and arrive on the surface.

Journey ends for now. Not sure where I am going. I feel fear. Thats ok.
Am sleeping for longer periods now. But it might change again, just have to wait and see.

15 April 2017
The feeling of fighting for my life is surfacing again, like I'm drowning in rough waters in the middle of nowhere, and keep coming up for air to take into my lungs.

I know how to swim, not brilliantly though, but I need to find something to hold onto or I will go under for sure. I will conquer up a swimming ring to put around me and hold me steady[ish] until the fog clears and I can really see where I am.

Not got me yet.

With love.

17 April 2017
Felling quite anxious today but I know what it may be about.
Without tempting fate, I have managed to go 2 whole days without the water works. I have struggled a lot with loosening the grip a bit.

Am feeling spiritual today. I see not what was snatched [so cruelly it seemed] from me but what was given - and I still have it. It was a gift. Thank you. With love.

18 April 2017
have had a piece of the tune from the Waltz of the Roses HERE playing in my head on and off since I woke up. I had to listen to it again. It is most beautiful, caressing piece. Felt like a violin bow was literally playing the tune on my heart and I could picture it in my mind.  Very deep tune. Takes my breath away ..... then deflates me.

Wonders where I go from here.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't here, that I no longer existed, that I never had existed. What was the point in my birth? Having to search for reasons for this existence when it should be known from the start - I think. 

I'm not suicidal, just questioning the reasons for my existence on this planet, an existential crisis.

Where do you go after your nervous system has broken down a bit and brought out so much pain at times thought you would fully  breakdown, but you just can't let that happen, you won't let that happen.

When not long before this you are triggered so close to breaking point it frightens the bejesus out of you and have to 'reach out man' and contact mental health crisis team who provided some support which i am grateful for, but it wasn't on going. I was discarded discharged without being informed. Do they think people don't find it hard enough at times to 'reach out', admit their problems, their difficulties that stops them from functioning properly? Seems that in patients are also having to battle with the problem of not enough help being provided by the NHS.

It could have been a lot worse I think and I am thankful for the support I appear to be currently receiving from GP and Camden councils housing officer. It may all have an illusion playing tricks with my mind though.

I thought back to the days when I couldn't speak at all about what was going on. I was mute, I really couldn't get words out, didn't know the words, didn't know what was happening other then I had to escape from this existence, that I had to pull away, retreat.

Where do you go? 

With love always.

21 April 2017
Do you know when stressful things come in 3's or 4, or more and you are given another bashing to your already battered and bruised system and you may think what the fcuk is going on? yesterday was one of those days.

When I really should have known better I was duped by the antics of the landlords agents - maybe it was because I haven't been so great of late and they knew  this - and they for whatever reason/motive thought ah easy prey.

Anyway, thank goodness there are many good people still around and that love really does have healing powers. Its a mighty force.

I'm tired must get some sleep soon.

23 April 2017
Other peoples love - and pain - attracts and repels  - sometimes at the same time or there about I think.

I have been trying for a while to do the stopping/silencing my thoughts mediation thing- gaining control over them, but its very difficult to do - for me at least. I think I have progressed a teeny tiny bit though in that I have noticed that there are 2 areas in my mind/brain where the thoughts come from - what feels like the front and back and that at least the first set of thoughts that come I am able to stop/silence them for a wee tiny bit longer then before.

I did notice though and it reminded me of a story I read about a man who went to live in a remote jungle with a few people - to experience their 'world' I suppose and to find the meaning of awakening - or something like that and do the stopping of thoughts thing. Well he concluded there was nothing there. Nothing.

I thought about this again as twice I had been in nothingness state for a small amount of time - and thought - its about first experiencing the nothingness and its disappointment then knowing that you have to wait for the nothingness to communicate with you. Maybe its a very long wait for some, maybe not so long for others.

Sunday, 22 January 2017

Camden Council's Housing Department and Anti-Social Behaviour

 I'm giving out about Camden council again, can't help it at times, they in many ways bring it upon themselves I think because of their behaviour in some areas of their 'governance' of things. Why does the LGA keep pushing for more powers to be devolved to local government when they can't manage properly the duties and powers they already have? It doesn't made sense to me. Ego maybe? A personality disorder?

Was having a look at the councils upcoming Housing scrutiny committee agenda (Tuesday 24 Jan 2017) HERE  and the minutes of the last housing scrutiny committee meeting HERE where they go on about how officers deal with reports of anti-social behaviour/reports of noise nuisance and I laughed and I laughed.

Its all rubbish. Officers only follow what they choose to follow in regards to procedures, procedures they invent to suit themselves.They also invent general tenancy conditions that on the face of it give (decent) tenants protections again a whole manner of things but its make believe -  a dishonest con trick - talk about #fakenews.

Some people in Camden council seem to think just because they write down something or say something that its the truth, its how it really is honest guv, but lots of people know and experience what it really is - BS. 

Council members do not have any control over how 'their' officers implement a policy.  Cllrs know this, officers know this and increasingly residents are knowing this.

Unless and until cllrs (our so called democratically elected representatives) kick some officers butts (hard)  and 'encourage' them to do their jobs properly council tenants are going to continue having in some areas third rate services, misery and despair and even bigger piles of BS to have to battle with.  Thats what I think.

If they can get away with doing as little as possible to help out their own tenants (what a land-lord eh?) in distress this suits them fine. They are not our friends, though many a dodgy tenant will cosy on up to them to get a few favours here a few scraps thrown there, they do tenants in general no favours at all. They make things worse in my view. Dodgy tenant reps are also part of the problem.

Cllrs/officers/volunteers scratch backs when need be, cclrs know their place because of this. 

Having such close and conflicted relations between the labour party and the unions who represent 'the workers' in the council doesn't in my view help matters when it comes to good policy implementation.Unions are forceful though when they wanting something for their members. My views.

Tuesday, 27 December 2016

Care Act 2014 and Housing

 When Camden council converted some of their street property houses (back in the late 1970's) into individual flats they made housing conditions in these properties worse than they where before they converted them.

As stated in the House of Lords (now called the Supreme Court) case of 1999: London Borough of Southwark and Another v. Mills and Others Baxter v. Mayor etc of the London Borough of Camden [1999] UKHL 40; [1999] 4 All ER 449; [1999] 3 WLR 939 (21st October, 1999)HERE

 "The conversion had the effect of reducing the sound insulation between the floors of the house." (my emphasis)

 "At that time there was no applicable building regulation requiring sound insulation between dwelling houses. Such requirements were not extended to inner London until 1986"

Since the above judgement in 1999 (16 yrs ago) Camden council hasn't made any provisions to upgrade the properties they rent out that require sounding proofing.  Despite many complaints from tenants renting these properties and effectively stuck in them particularly now that many have be taken off the housing list, can't afford to swap (moving costs) Camden council has ignored and neglected the problems tenants in these conversions face.

Tenants are not informed of the defeat before they move in. But as the law stands landlords don't have to tell tenants about defeats - they are supposed to find out everything about the state of the property before they move in. This to me is not realistic or practical in many cases. In this case the law offers little or no protection to tenants.

In Camden council street properties are spread out across the borough - tenants have no real voice (collective or otherwise) , no power to put pressure on the landlord to remedy the defect.

No campaigns to the council or local MPs to help change the situation, change the law.  Nothing.

As with councils across London who have been over charging (for years) tenants for water  Camden council says they put the money back into housing - really - I say  - nothing I'm aware off spent on sound proofing these properties. Where's the money gone? dodgy tick box tenant groups? housing repairs/regeneration/improvements department - anyone know how much they charge for things?eck I doubt cllrs have a clue - dare I say its not the council  tradition to 'stick ones nose' into such matters.

What about vulnerable tenants?

The Care Act 2014 HERE  is supposed to bring together Health/Wel-being and Housing.

"General responsibilities of local authorities

1Promoting individual well-being

(1)The general duty of a local authority, in exercising a function under this Part in the case of an individual, is to promote that individual's well-being.
(2)Well-being”, in relation to an individual, means that individual's well-being so far as relating to any of the following—

(a)personal dignity (including treatment of the individual with respect);
(b)physical and mental health and emotional well-being;(my emphasis)
(c)protection from abuse and neglect;
(d)control by the individual over day-to-day life (including over care and support, or support, provided to the individual and the way in which it is provided);
(e)participation in work, education, training or recreation;
(f)social and economic well-being;
(g)domestic, family and personal relationships;
(h)suitability of living accommodation;(my emphasis)
(i)the individual's contribution to society.

What has local authority Camden council come up with in regards to suitable housing in relation to mental health and emotional well- being?  

As I write this (2.30am) and despite my radio being on to try and drown out any and all noise intrusion that occurs until tenant above goes to bed, I have to put up with tenant above walking about above my bedroom area in high heel shoes. Deep breaths.

The councils Noise Patrol service stops at 2am but they didn't come out the 2 times I've called them before 2am so whats the point in phoning them. 

Despite being under the care of Camden NHS for a few conditions, I haven't been assessed by Camden council. There  doesn't appear to be any partnership working between the councils housing department and the NHS.  

It may just take some time. Patience, and lots of deep breaths, doubled meds,  and other drug. 

4am now - think tenant above has gone to bed so I will turn off radio. 

The still of the night at 4am is a wonderful 'sound' after noise noise noise.  

And no I don't wear ear-plugs in whats supposed to my home - why the feck should I have to day and night, week in, year out late at night/o'clock  in the morning?

Sunday, 6 November 2016

Noise Nuisance - How wide spread is it?

I know of a camden council tenant in another Camden council street property conversion - same as me stuck in the middle of 3 flats - who transferred to the flat about 4 years ago and has had to put up with horrendous noise nuisance from the flat above.

The rent paying tenant is between 2 leasehold flats, the one above causing the problem. The previous rent paying tenant gave up the flat and it was empty for 5 years - same as mine. Did the council know about the existing problem and didn't tell tenant before tenant moved in? 

The leaseholder moved out and lets the flat out on a short term basis - which is a breach of the leaseholders contract with landlord plus the unlawful sub tenants are a cause of constant nuisance but the council has been really dragging their feet about it.

The tenant has recently been signed off sick by his GP due to the GP's concerns about his heart, and general health, which he has to go for tests. The tenant is generally run down. I understand this.

I despair sometimes at the landlord Camden council.

Saturday, 10 September 2016

Parliament and Tenant Participation in Camden

In relation to another story about Keith Vaz MP (L) HERE  a line says in relation to speaker of the commons John Bercow MP (C) that he  "warned Mr Bridgen not to use Parliamentary privilege to raise the matter in a Commons debate.".(my emphasis)

This rang a bell with me in regards to how the dmc's and casp operate maybe other groups as well.

No raising of issues that are deemed 'personal' at meetings and if they are they pretty much fall on deaf ears. Great problem solvers eh?

As an aside, the story in the local rag HERE from Jan 2016 "'Town Hall in housing fraud probe" got me thinking about a situation that occurred not long before the story was printed where tenant had bloke in who painted flat but which tenant hadn't paid for -  in money - and it hadn't been recorded as works carried out by housing repairs.

It may be totally innocent I really don't know and I ain't accusing anyone of anything illegal just saying what the above linked story brought to mind as things do.

Tuesday, 30 August 2016

Star Report Survey on Tenant Satisfaction

A recent DMC report by Graeham Beedham who is head of the councils Tenant and Leasehold Engagement unit in the newly formed Supporting Communities Directorate goes like this:

"This report provides an update on the progress of the Tenants and Residents Survey (STAR) carried out during May and June. Draft results were received by Camden just prior to the September DMC round. Having given initial consideration to the draft, we are providing the DMC's with a summary of highlights in this report. The final STAR reports will be made available in order for detailed discussion to take place at a local level in the November round of the DMC's. DMC's members views will contribute to actions taken in response to the surevey results"

Click Here for report.

So how will the dmcs play this? squeeze in ten minute slots on their ever increasing agenda's where nothing really gets sorted but they do like their 'stick their noses in everywhere' agendas?

What will they say? how will they react to the top priorities of tenants who took part in the survey - tenants who directly gave their voice on an individual level as opposed to so called representatives on the dmcs.Who exactly do they represent? Not me and I'm guessing not lots of tenants.

 Some of these tenant groups really seem to hate and won't be open to scrutiny even though in receipt of public money. How can that be?

Thursday 1 September 2016
Though no one seems to do much about it (and the labour party may well claim they didn't see it coming - like a lot of things i guess) I am again repeating my concerns about the hard left who have taken over the tenant participation (TP) scene in Camden. This may also be the case in other boroughs in London and across the country.

They are extremists and dangerous I think, not only because of some of the policies they want implemented (some policies I agree with) but also how they behave - how they go about things. Though in the past I have not always gone about things in the right manner, I have learned from being forcibly restrained and have adjusted my behaviour. The same cannot be said about others. It is not in my nature other than the admittedly 'mad' phase I went through to behave time and again like they do.

 Though I haven't been directly (via tenant groups and council meetings) involved in the TP scene for years I have no reason to believe they/things have changed. These people are supposedly really tough and in some ways they are in their determination and success at taking over and throwing their wait around in order to push forward their political ideologies - but will often go crying to the police and council if anyone challenges them by making complaints and playing the innocent victim.

How to deal with committee members who they have befriended and 'promise' like they do, to help out but who after a while become concerned about their behaviour and want the committee to be aware of it. In order the stop the person the following tactic is used:

Phone up police and make all sorts of accusations about the person - play the victim and have coppers turn up at your home and intimidate you into keeping away from the committee. As simple and effective as that and it works.

How to deal with councillors who they can't control - make complaints about them to their parties or the council. Don't know if they have made complaints to the police about them but it wouldn't surprise me. They have though pulled this stunt with the police on people who wanted to run as candidates for membership of the council.

I would like to say that at times they may well have a point but they are extreme in how they go about making their points, over the top and they add lies to make things look worse than it is. Dirty tactics.

If someone dares to call them out in public say on a website, they don't ask the person to stop what they are doing if indeed it does distress the delicate flowers as they pretend to be, they go to the council and the police. They are I think really bad problem solvers more problem creators.

They don't do talking, resolving issues others may have with them, they get others in authority to sort the person out by making complaints that may well have a point but which lies are added to make things look worse then they are. They may well add that the person was violent towards them when they weren't or issued serious threats to them and others, when they hadn't.

They are successful in some ways I think because they know how to manipulate, intimidate, play the victim and attract other like minded people to be in their gang. I suspect some cllrs/tenant reps and MP's go along with them because they know how they operate and don't want the hassle of them setting upon them.

They will also as a sign of their displeasure, turn their backs at public meetings to others of the left who don't want to join in with a group they are setting up. They will give dirty looks to those who displease them. They will try and isolate people and generally spread lies to keep people away from the person and not question what is really going on.

They will get others to pass on that if people they don't like turn up at meetings they will phone the police.

They will turn up with the mob at the town hall and demand that cabinet do as they say, accuse them of not being proper socialists or whatever, and bang their closed fists down on hard surfaces. Filling the town hall or other places with supporters is what they do I guess to try and intimidate others.

They will come round to where you live to try and stir up trouble with your neighbours by telling them lies.

They will join other political parties to gain access to and influence various people in those parties. Some I suspect are double agents (I guess you can call them) who get involved with the 'cause' and put themselves up as leaders.

I don't support or am a member of any political party though I may agree with some policies from both left and right. Am I picking on the hard left for no good reason? No i don't believe I am.

They are from what I have experienced, read and heard, the most extreme group on the TP scene - I don't think the extreme right would stand a chance in establishing themselves in Camden via the TP scene but the extreme left have been allowed to.

This I guess must be JC's - you know the beardy bloke who seems for many to be the messiah - the new gentler, polite (honest?) way of doing things - sorry but I have to laugh at that one.

 I nearly forgot the phone calls they make to peoples homes - how they get the numbers and access to other peoples confidential info the council holds can only be because they have their people on the inside - that relay confidential info to you (so that you know they have people on the inside?) as well as threatening " we're out to get you bitch".  Classy people eh? No big surprise really( though still shocking) about the recent report about vulnerable people targeted HERE 

Saturday, 27 August 2016

Vulnerable people targeted in Town Hall scam

taken from the local rag Camden New Journal HERE

Four arrests after private details of vulnerable residents are 'stolen' from Camden Council.

Published: 25 August, 2016

FOUR people have been arrested after the private details of some of Camden’s most vulnerable residents were “stolen” from Town Hall computer systems – raising fears that personal information has already been passed to cold-call scammers, the New Journal has learned.

Detectives were called in by Camden Council after the names, dates of birth and addresses of elderly residents were allegedly plundered from confidential databases.

One line of inquiry for investigators is that information taken by an insider working for the council was passed to accomplices on the
outside looking for prime targets who would be most vulnerable to door-to-door con tricks and telephone scams ultimately aimed at obtaining bank details.

A member of council staff is understood to have been removed from a position as the probe continues. Town Hall chiefs have made a series of home visits to elderly residents to apologise for the data breach and to advise on how they can now protect themselves.

They are telling residents to check the credentials of people who call at the door unannounced and to be wary of so-called “vishing”, or voice phishing, rackets in which bogus callers insist bank information must be provided.

Martin Pratt, executive director of supporting people directorate, has written to residents explaining the council’s response. He has told those affected: “I am deeply sorry that your personal information was stolen from us and I want to assure you that we have taken steps to ensure that this does not happen again.”

The Information Commissioner, the independent watchdog that investigates data breaches of private information, has been alerted by the council.

In his letter – seen by the New Journal – Mr Pratt added: “We are strengthening our systems to protect the information held on our systems... However, the police have told us that a number of people across London have recently been contacted by ‘scammers’ who try to steal money from them.

“They use stolen information to make contact with people and then try to get hold of bank account and PIN number details.

“People have also been called by someone pretending to be a police officer. The fake police officer calls and asks the person to go immediately to their bank to withdraw money and then hand it over to another fake police officer who will call at their home address. The police or your bank will never call you and ask for your PIN number or bank account details. They will never send someone to your home to pick up your bank cards or your money.”

While arrests have been made, so far nobody has been charged.

A council spokesman said: “We are supporting police as they investigate and we have taken urgent steps to warn vulnerable residents of the dangers of scammers. This includes providing direct support to those whose information has been taken. A criminal investigation is under way and it would be inappropriate to comment further at this stage.”

In the wake of the alleged theft of data from council systems, Camden residents worried they may be affected by bogus calls are advised to:
l Never give bank account details to someone you don’t know;
l Never give out any personal information, such as bank and credit card details, or copies of documents such as a passport or driving licence, unless you know who you are dealing with and why they need it; and
l Never email your financial information, even if you know the person you are emailing.


Sunday, 31 July 2016

High Court challenge over housing allocations policy

The below has been taken from the local rag, its an interesting case I think for various reasons. I hope the case (judicial review) does get to be heard in court and the judgement made public for others to refer to. I was going to search out the available relevant judgements within the last few years but for some reason I can't access the site I was previously on. Will try again another time.

As an aside, I haven't heard anything about the issue of the landlord camden council possibly over-charging its tenants for water as reported in an earlier post HERE. Whether the dmc's etc say or do anything about is is anyone's quess but I suspect they won't. I have enquired about the ruling to my land-lord Camden council but they haven't got back to me.

Disabled couple challenges Camden Council in High Court over new housing allocations policy http://www.camdennewjournal.com/high-court-housing-points#comment-97384

Council housing allocations has for a long time been a very emotive and political issue for various reasons including perceived fairness/unfairness of decisions made by the landlord, about the deserving/undeserving as prescribed/proscribed by law, and corruption.  People are eligible for council/social housing for a variety of reasons including, homelessness, having a local connection, working for the council, having children, disabled, vulnerable, wanting to live near to relatives, being a committee member of a council tenants group. Can't think of all the categories, and yes it can be seen as pitting tenants against tenants particularly when the balance between supply and demand is weighted heavily on the demand side.

By "demand" i mean the supply of decent, suitable, affordable homes and the improvement of existing ones to bring them up to the legal standards of new builds. I wonder how England and the UK in general compares to other countries on this issue?

2016 Cases 
  • Georgia Woolfe v London Borough of Islington  HERE  July
The claim is that: 
"(1) an aspect of Islington's scheme is unlawful in that it prevents applicants to whom reasonable preference must be given, but who have fewer than 120 points, from bidding at all for available properties; (2) additionally or alternatively, that points threshold for bidding is unlawful, being in breach of section 11 of the Children Act 2004 (I will call these two heads of claim collectively the "points threshold claim"); and
(3) in relation to herself, Islington in any event misapplied their own policy and failed to award her the 90 "New Generation" points to which she says she is entitled under Islington's own policy and scheme."

1 and 2 dismissed but 3 upheld.

  • Hassan Jalal v Royal Borough of  Greenwich HERE
 a) refusing to provide accommodation under section 17 Children Act 1989
b) continuing to refuse accommodation when further information provided

Not upheld

 - Material change in circumstances - upheld "It is not for the court to determine the issue of vulnerability or to decide whether the claimant is in priority need"  Ms Amanda Yip QC HERE
10 Sept 2016
Not seen any updates on this case in local rag (there may be some that I'm not aware of) - possibly the reason of putting it in the press in the first place wasn't a public interest one where its does get to court and a ruling is made that others can refer to as a point of law, but rather a tactic to force the council to concede, which is a shame i think as it would i'm sure have been helpful for many others to at least no where they stood on this issue.


Tuesday, 28 June 2016

Voter Registration Fraud Risks

I'd forgotten about this one. The scope for voter registration fraud is immense i think. Its from April 2015.


It is not essential to provide your national insurance (NI) number when registering to vote.

If you don’t know your NI number – which can usually be found on payslips or official letters about benefits, tax or pensions – you can just say soby giving a simple explanation.

It is then up to your local council to verify your identity.

Although online registration closes for the majority of voters on 7 June, local electoral registration offices have longer to verify your identity.

Whatever you do make sure you register to vote. You can think about who to vote for later.

“Under the new online registration system it’s just one of the ways you can have your identity verified,” says Oliver Sidorczuk, director of Bite the Ballot. “If you fill in the application, without your national insurance number, it’s your local council’s duty to verify you.”

According to the Cabinet Office, electoral registration officials will then contact you if they are unable to verify the application using other local data sources.

Such sources include cross-referencing your information with data from the Department for Work and Pensions and the Student Loans Company.

If they cannot verify you, the local electoral registration office will contact you to request further identification. (my emphasis)

This will likely be a photograph of your passport, or driving licence.

Most progressive councils should, and I would suggest must, allow you to email in smartphone photos of your passport and driving licence,” (my emphasis) says Sidorczuk.

 Less than 25% of the population know their NI number, estimates Ben Page, head of polling organisation Ipsos Mori. If you are one of them, all you have to do when filling in the online form is explain why don’t know it. You can simply write: “I don’t know where it is.”


what to say?

Bite The Ballot HERE

Friday, 24 June 2016

UK EU In or Out Results

Vote details taken from the BBC website HERE

UK to leave membership of the EU.

Very close call. A nation divided on this one.

Am still taking it in as its a bit of a shock (and a bit scary as to the unknown of what it really means) even though I voted out for various reasons. Some people already saying they want a second vote which isn't going to happen in my view. The end isn't nigh and it wouldn't hurt for more people to have faith in the UK being capable of running its own affairs.

Leave 51.9%
Votes 17,410,742
Remain 48.1%
Votes 16,141,241
Overall turnout 72.2% 
Rejected votes 26.033

 Update 12 midnight
some people are trying to unnerve leave voters by the doom and gloom they are forecasting will happen.

Hold your nerve,  ride the storm and have faith in positive outcomes.

Maybe now the real battle begins.

Update 27 June 2016
The hounds of hell have been unleashed and we are all doomed - you'd think according to some folk who to me are just agitators and fear mongers and some banks are claiming to be moving abroad (close the door on your way out) . Go all those who want to, that is your choice, it won't be the end of the world. The small pockets of violent racists have come out and are causing trouble - who is pulling their strings?

The "Prime" Minster of the UK has had a cry (in public) and has ran away and his bruv Boris is taking the P and trying to backtrack on things.

And another bruv George osborne has come out from hiding to say he will be making a speech .......... to calm the markets.  Not calm the people but the markets because that is what its really all about.

Deep breaths.

Someone/s with a backbone, intelligence and integrity (who isn't going to try and fcuk us over) please step toward.

Update 29 June 2016

The fabians  and the swp communists (labour party and government opposition) are having a big bust up as the fabians are trying to oust the swp leader JC (for a fabian leader) . The labour party is theirs shout the swp as the fabians (have a wolf in sheeps clothing crest) really show them who have the real power (the brains over the brawn).
The Iraqi report is out next week. 

A protest group from the Inners are protesting about the democratic vote the majority ( England, Wales, Scotland and Northern Ireland as a Union) voted for but because a majority in London voted In, they want to stay. Sorry I really do have to laugh at that one. Think some are saying the Leave campaign was based on a lie. Isn't everything? Am not buying it.

Yes they do have the right to protest but please lets no longer be of any doubt they are only in favour of democracy when things go their way.

JC (the beardy bloke who some say is the messiah) ) by all accounts was for leaving the EU but apparently lead the In campaign - I am confused.

And i only recently found out George Galloway is all for leaving the EU.
May forgive him for going into BB and the cat impression (shudders)....

People eh.

Update 30 June 2016
My experience of the hard left in Camden (via tenant participation with the council) is the complete opposite of this: 

JC may well believe and stick to what he preaches, but some of his most pushy and vocal supporters (in camden at least) are nasty thugs (in my view and experience ) who are most intolerant of others views (some of the most aggressive, hostile people I have come across) lie a lot, intimidate others, devious, etc etc. Even some other socialists don't like them.

How does one explain that?

They will I believe turn on JC if he lets them down.  A kinder politics is not for them.

On saying that Camden council has been allowing the far left (casp) to bully and intimidate, manipulate and lie about others for years and haven't done a thing about it as far as I can see. Only when it suits the 'party' do they take action on things it seems.

Don't think much is going to change anytime soon. Its the same old same old with these political groups and why some people thing the leave campaign was won because of what politicians said (whether they be lies or not) is beyond me - give some of us more credit please. Lots of people stopped believing (in) them years ago.

Update 3 July 2016
The Labour Party Rule Book 2013 HERE
The Conservative [and Unionist] Party Constitution 2009 HERE

Update 4 July 2016
Apparently its okay for the leavers to change their minds ...... well yes people change their minds all the time but I know my mind over voting leave hasn't changed. Bigot me. 

Another tactic being that only 72% of those eligible to vote did so, making the leave vote only roughly 37% of voters so a second referendum should be held.  That's how things work until and unless the rules are changed before a vote - not after.

One can say the same about cllrs, MPs, etc who are elected into office usually on a less than 50% vote or say the Neighbourhood Plans which in Camden the turnout has so far been very low but they where passed. That's how it works.

Apparently some folk are about to start a legal challenge to stop the UK from leaving the EU before parliament has a debate and vote on it (the referendum vote isn't legally binding apparently so parliament can block it, but whether they will or not in our so-called democracy is another thing) That should fun. Plenty of time from 24 June 2016 till new PM is elected by the Con party in Oct 2016 for the remainers to try various tactics to get their own way.

The process of formally leaving membership of the  EU  has to be triggered by following the rules in Article 50 HERE of the Lisbon Treaty signed by 27 heads of states in 2007 but finalised in 2009, which UK citizens didn't have a say on when the Labour party was in government. Ireland held a referendum on the treaty and the majority rejected it but a second referendum was held and the powers that be got the yes vote they wanted.

The full Lisbon Treaty HERE

Update 5 July 2016
On the chance of their being a second referendum i think the remain vote would win - what with all the doom and gloom and wailing and a crying by some remainers. It would i'm sure influence some leavers to change their minds or even not voting again - who wants to go through that again except the pushy remainers?

On the other hand who knows what if any shenanigans went on in local government with voter registration and the counting of votes.

Tuesday, 21 June 2016

Thursday, 16 June 2016

Bribery at the Town Hall


'Bribe' allegation at Town Hall has been substantiated, say council investigators

Published: 16 June, 2016

CAMDEN Council says a “bribery” allegation relating to the work of one of its own members of staff has been “substantiated”.

The case was revealed after a colleague reportedly blew the whistle at the Town Hall.

Information on an internal investigation was sent to councillors this week, although the full details of the case are understood to have been reserved for a small number of people at the council.

A report on fraud-busting is now due to be discussed at the Town Hall this evening (Thursday) by members of Camden’s cross-party Audit Committee. It reveals that there had been an allegation that an “employee is being bribed, ie that he has been ordering and receiving goods from a contractor in exchange for favourable treatment”.

The file goes on to simply state: “Allegation substantiated.” It says that the human resources department is “currently conducting disciplinary action”. It is understood police will not be involved. The allegation relates to a breach of staff rules rather than criminal behaviour.

Camden’s communications department said last night (Wednesday) that it could not comment on specific details of the case.

It is the most striking in a list of reports which came through to a confidential whistle­blowing hotline set up for staff to privately report suspicious behaviour. Several of the allegations received through this method have not been substantiated, including a claim that a member of staff was involved in funding terrorism and that another was illegally sub-letting their own council home.

Allegations still under investigation include reports of cash theft from a library, however.

Internal fraud-busters are also reporting to the committee that over the past year Camden has found substance in 18 allegations against its staff for “fraud or malpractice”.

The outcomes of the cases included 12 dismissals, two resignations and a written warning. The numbers of staff involved are, however, a tiny minority of the council workforce as a whole.

Meanwhile, Camden is set to take further action against staff found to be misusing a loan system supposed to be in place to help them buy travel season tickets. The money cannot be used for other purposes and the council said that “it is anticipated that disciplinary action will be taken against employees who failed to comply with the scheme”.

A council spokesman said: “We conduct a series of internal audits each year to ensure our staff comply with our policies and procedures.”
Bribery Act 2010 HERE 

Update 19 June 2016
The council report about the above and other such things is  an officer report to the Audit and Corporate Governance committee HERE agenda item 13 - Annual Counter Fraud Report 2015 -2016 HERE

Friday, 10 June 2016

London Council Overcharged Tenants for Water

The below excerpts only came to light recently via the localgovernmentlawyer.co.uk  website HERE of a ruling in March 2016.

Council to refund tenants £28.6m after High Court water overcharging ruling 
 Thursday, 09 June 2016 07:00

The London Borough of Southwark has decided to repay 48,000 current and former tenants £28.6m following a High Court ruling earlier this year that it had overcharged for water and sewerage for 12 years.

In March this year Mr Justice Newey ruled that:
1. Unless and until a 2013 Deed (stating that the council was not a water reseller under the relevant regulations) took effect, the relationship between Thames Water and Southwark was not one of principal and agent but involved Southwark buying water and sewerage services from Thames Water and re-selling them to its tenants;
2. As a result, the Water Resale Order 2006 applied and served to limit what tenants could be charged; and
3. The amounts that Southwark charged the claimant, Kim Jones, (and other tenants with unmetered water supplies) exceeded the "maximum charge" allowed under the 2006 Order.


 “However, there are approximately 330,000 other tenants in the Thames Water region entitled to claim refunds. Any tenant in the Thames Water region who is liable to pay a water charge to a local authority landlord or to a housing association landlord is likely to be able to make a claim. Tenants in this positon should seek legal advice as soon as possible.”