feeling invisible - in camden

i'm feeling invisible right now and very distressed and i am mute as well, nobody hears me [or listens even] thats how it feels, and it hurts me a lot. 

how this this happen, how did i get to the stage in my life [at 60] where i really have little or no value to many around me and getting help in a crisis isn't easy. 

the build up and built up to what happened today [26 dec 2025] in my camden council flat 

it won't stop, its like im, this flat, this property is cursed and earlier on the ceiling in my living room collapsed onto the floor of my living room - and it nearly killed my cat, the only being i have. 

ive been reporting the water leak from flat above me since around 26 nov 2025 - to the landlord, and 

someone even came to where i live from the council, somehow managed to get into the communal area and stuck a calling card under my flat door - i was out - it was about a door lock, not the water leak. the problem with the door lock had been fixed the week or so before [someone had stuck glue in the door lock and my key wouldn't go into it so i couldnt lock the door - its just luck i was inside the flat when it was glued because if id been out i wouldnt have been able to get inside. 

this was done as revenge for the accidental leak to flat below me that happened when thames water turned the water off in my street and others. i was verbally abused by relative of A, was belittled etc etc made to look as horrible as possible and even a council worker gave me a dirty look and the housing repairs bloke R064 called me a fat cow and slammed the main from door on me. 

They know im not well, they don't care - only about harming me - they accuse me of this that and the other when they do the things they claim i do - they do worse, they tell lies they collude with others, and they hate me becausde i tell it like it is, don't go along with their scams etc and say things online - they have no guts to come to me and say 'blah blah blah' all they do is attack, scream, belittle, threaten - they cannot do non aggressive arguments to put there side across , its attack attack, growllllllll. thats it. thats all they know. 

i have to take a break now - i feel the urge to have a fag [i gave after heart attack] but i still get cravings] 

they want me dead, and the police pick and choose who they do see and hear and who they will protect and who they will truamatise and torture - they have done that to me, chosen to cause me harm, to traumatise me.