feeling invisible - in camden

i'm feeling invisible right now and very distressed and i am mute as well, nobody hears me [or listens even] thats how it feels, and it hurts me a lot. 

how this this happen, how did i get to the stage in my life [at 60] where i really have little or no value to many around me and getting help in a crisis isn't easy. 

the build up and built up to what happened today [26 dec 2025] in my camden council flat 

it won't stop, its like im, this flat, this property is cursed and earlier on the ceiling in my living room collapsed onto the floor of my living room - and it nearly killed my cat, the only being i have. 

ive been reporting the water leak from flat above me since around 26 nov 2025 - to the landlord, and 

someone even came to where i live from the council, somehow managed to get into the communal area and stuck a calling card under my flat door - i was out - it was about a door lock, not the water leak. the problem with the door lock had been fixed the week or so before [someone had stuck glue in the door lock and my key wouldn't go into it so i couldnt lock the door - its just luck i was inside the flat when it was glued because if id been out i wouldnt have been able to get inside. 

this was done as revenge for the accidental leak to flat below me that happened when thames water turned the water off in my street and others. i was verbally abused by relative of A, was belittled etc etc made to look as horrible as possible and even a council worker gave me a dirty look and the housing repairs bloke R064 called me a fat cow and slammed the main from door on me. 

They know im not well, they don't care - only about harming me - they accuse me of this that and the other when they do the things they claim i do - they do worse, they tell lies they collude with others, and they hate me becausde i tell it like it is, don't go along with their scams etc and say things online - they have no guts to come to me and say 'blah blah blah' all they do is attack, scream, belittle, threaten - they cannot do non aggressive arguments to put there side across , its attack attack, growllllllll. thats it. thats all they know. 

i have to take a break now - i feel the urge to have a fag [i gave after heart attack] but i still get cravings] 

they want me dead, and the police pick and choose who they do see and hear and who they will protect and who they will truamatise and torture - they have done that to me, chosen to cause me harm, to traumatise me. 

 

20/12/2025 - all still isnt well in kentish town

 

its been a very draining day for me. 

1. my landlord camden council keeps ignoring my reports of a water leak coming from flat c above me. water is dripping through my living room ceiling, but it stopped for a few days and started up again y/d within noticable drips of water from the ceiling onto my carpet. 

other area's of the ceiling have yellow watermarks, including around the ceiling lights, there is also black marks which may be mould. 

y/d someone from camden council sent me a text on my phone about an appointment - didnt say what for just lots of numbers and text blah to agree sort of thing which i did but it didnt go through. so i left it.

nexr day when i was out, coming back from therapy i get back and see that a note from landlord had be pushed ybder my flat door by un-named person about a door lock...

door lock, but that was fixed the other week [ because someone from flat A glued the lock chamber up and i couldn't get my key in it. its only by chance i was in when they did it [i didnt hear anything but they sneak about as quiet as mice when it suits them] and its not safe or secure living where i do, the internal communal area more so and everyone and anyone can gain access. 

i mentioned this to @camdencouncil twitter account who already has my details as ive sent them to the @camdencouncil twitter account before, but they wouln't pass on my details to housing repairs. then the 

wrong bloke turns up and still nothing gets sorted and camden council landord just ignores the situation.

the situation with flar c also involved the tenant harassing me and getting me arrested and the police only too willing to give me a kicking even though they know im not well. this was 6 march 2025,,,

i will fill in this area another time as i want to go forward to today [sat 20 dec 2025] and not only the water leak by a camden  council housing repairs employee who moved in to flat c with the tenant who has been harassing me etc.

he starts with the same slamming doors etc and other stuff i know was being done to harass me, on behalf of or heavily influenced by ph from flat c.

anyway various flamable stuff was also dumped in the communal front garden area, new trees cut down, long planks of wood and a large battery put under the gas meter/s. other stuff dumped that i though would have needed a van, maybe with a rack on top, to transport and dump in the front garden. 

i complained about this this fire hazaard and only the long planks attritubuted to r064 where taken away. 

as well as the license plate, R064 is the identifying 4 digit number on the camden council white transit van ro64 drives around and parks outside where i live, in the day time, every night and weekends, no parking permit needed apparently, then there the council tax single persons discount..... change of circumstances. ....

a few weeks back r064 when holding onto the open main front door where i live, and i was outside on the pavement, called me a fat cow and slammed the door shut. ph had been hanging out her kitchen window window phone in hand. ill explain more about this later. 

more recently when i came out of my flat to go to hospital appointment r064 was behind flat c door and came out and literally stood right next to me [he approached me] i felt very threatened by this and i moved on down the stairs with him right behind me. because i wasn't going as fast as he wanted [i have mobility problem] he let out this loud sign sound behind me. i didnt say anything to him as he and ph had got me arrested by 'lovely police officers who said how high, when they said jump' 

they lied to police who rushed down to where i live to get me and also lied about seeing a video of me approaching them. again i was tramatised by the police and held at stoke newington police dungeon for 16 hrs without any review or anything and even asked one of them if they where going to kill me, he said no but i really did think they would as they where getting away with the sham arrest and grounds for arrest etc.... that i was later released for and told it was a mistake.. a mistake, no way it was purpose i know that and then i had conditional bail imposed on me by police.. huh i though... 

what they had done was put r064  name on conditions not to go near sort of thing....

which i put in a court application to have scrapped because of various reasons, dishonesty etc by police being one of the reasons, how their behaviour had affected me etc etc. send to courts and cps.. 

then not long after that police contacted me saying blah blah... basically withdrawing the bail and conditions...no sorry or anything though for the  harm they caused me [again]

r064 was still hanging around where i live despite complaints made to employee camden council and the police... looked to me like he was/is being protected and this stands today and him throwing his weight around where i live with putting a stinking big sheet of plywood sort of wood in the communual area, leaving it there and when i went out it affected my breathing - its a hazarrd again, fire anf breathing wft i thought how is he repeatedly getting away with this stuff, 

when i came back he was at the council van, all smiles, laughing with some bloke who lives in former pub, van front door wide open and power tool, flat c door open and power tool noise starts on and off for hours with not only me gearing it but others and the loud thumping/banging about above my bedroom. 

like he owns the place, runs the council or something. he is still in flat c with council van outside. 

i think he uses an equality act 2010 protected characterist, wheras the likes of me, [female. disabled ] is down the bottom of the  hyarchy ladder. trans gender being no.1, race no.2. disabled ............... way down the bottom its barely noticably. 

they treat disabled people like nobodies, imo and same goes for the landlord camden council.

23 dec 2025

8.20pm lots of banging about above my bedroom again - its camden council housing repairs employee r064 again [van parked outside again where i can see it],  causing a nusiance and doing works to flat c where he has been living - i don't feel safe with him about the place, and i still have stuff against my flat door to baracade it. 

25 dec 2025 water is still leaking through my living room ceiling and the ceiling is now peeling away. 

i have been reporting the water leak since around 26 nov 2025 - 

though water is not leaking through, water marks can be seen around the ceiling light, 

im still baracaded in 

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/ " A man in north London was left with a collapsed ceiling after Camden Council took too long to fix a leak coming from the flat above, a Housing Ombudsman investigation has found." 

ive had a look on the housing ombudsman site here  for camden council cases, and i think the above linked case is here. 

26 dec 2025

today in the am about an hour after me contacting the landlord again to say that water is still coming 

update 

the ceiling in my living room has colapsed onto my floor - nearly killing my cat who was under it and who came runnibg out, poor little fella, i also could have been under it 

https://youtube.com/shorts/SXM0fYrDCgk?si=TQF0YjaSc71JrCs3

31 dec 2025

went to hydro therapy earlier, i enjoyed it but as i got nearer to where i live i felt depressed ,anxious about living where i do and with those from flat above me and a lesser degree flat below - as well as having camden council as landlord. 

3.10pm - sounds like r064 has gone into flat C - the heavy walking up the short communal stairs, the making noise with key to open the door, the slamming of the door.... then when upstairs the dropping down or a heavy bag above my b/r .all done on purpose imo so i can hear as further harassment of me.

r064 came back out of flat c ran down the small stairs - the van he drives is parked outside.

someone has just come back into flat c and then the drilling - works done in flat c. he won't leave me alone

i still feel the need to baracade my flat door as i dont feel safe with him about or anyone to do with flat c. 

1 jan 2026

R064 is still in flat above me [flat c] and the camden council van he drives is parked outside where i can see it. i see this as further and continued harassment/intimidation of me. this started when he copied the tenant in flat C of [on purpose] slamming of the door/s, running down the communal stairs and only talking when he was at my flat door, so that i could hear him - and the long wooden planks of wood that were dumped in the front garden [communal area] area - possibly he was also responsible for the large battery as well. 

added to that him calling me a fat cow and when i was on my way to hospital appointment and i had left my flat and locked the door [he had been standing behind flat c door, i didnt hear him come down the internal stairs, but he must have heard me come out of my flat] just as i had locked my door i hear the flac c door unlock/open and he was right behind me. 

he could and should have waited until i had gotten down the stairs but he didnt, so i took this as him on purpose intimidating me. i tried not to react and didnt say anything, as i didnt want to give him or petra hind the opportunity to get me arrested again [the police are only too eager to arrest disabled people it seems] and even lie about some things. 

i started walkling down the main longer communal stairs and he was still close behind em - because i have mobility problems i hold onto the hand rail that on the wail and i heard him make a noise [he sighed] could be i wasnt going fast enough for him and he just had to let me know how annoyed he was ...

i made a complaint about him [again] yet so far nothing has been done about him. he still keeps coming to where i live, even in the communal area and i don't feel safe with him about - with anything/oneone to do with flat C, and now i baracade my flat door [a door that isnt very secure due to the met police bashing it in to get at me be cause - i didnt receive the court summons to attend a hearing, yet one is assumned to have received it/it was served if its posted .... 

i didnt receive it so didnt attend the hearing so the police/cps request a warrant of arrest [because they couldnt even contemplate that i didnt receive the summons and the courts don't either] which they get from the magistrate and hold onto it for 3 months [hardly a priority of seriousiness in the list of 'crimes' im charged with.